Thursday, December 3, 2009
Great Recall
So, we went for it. She was perfect. And she ran beautifully for just over two hours.
Then things started smoking and bubbling, and making noises, so we had to pull over and find a mechanic who knew what all the tubes meant under the hood, and could explain to us why they had to stay attached to things... YES. That is STILL all I know about engines three years post-trip. Get over it.
$50 later and we were in good shape. The only problem with a little tantrum like that is that try as you might, you can never really trust her again. We watched her temperature gage like a hawk for the 3000 or so remaining miles, steering clear of the mountains to avoid any back spasms, and staying just around 110 km to avoid the shakes. She had it easy.
And here's where my little theory comes in. If you hold a grudge against your car for being temperamental, it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.
There was one time after all this pampering, (maybe 4) where we required a favour. A simple climb up an unavoidable mountain on highway one. And as we climbed, so did her temperature, until we found ourselves pulled over on the curb, enjoying the scenery through the haze of exhaust and overexertion . Man, what a blast.
BUT, back to my flashback from last night. Here I am, driving our car (I wish she had a name) back from school after a torturous 10 hour day of seat work. And I'm enjoying the scenery. People have their Christmas stuff up, lights are everywhere.. including inside the car, specifically the ones that have lit up around most of the gages, saying crazy things like "change oil" "low coolant" "low tire pressure" and "service engine soon". All of this would not have concerned me, if I hadn't then noticed that little gage that I used to watch like a hawk in Australia, specifically while climbing mountains. And yes, it too was climbing, right into the red zone, while I frantically recalled what overheating can do to an engine.
Ah yes. Cook it.
Luckily, I remembered something useful as I approached the peak of the mountain (the escarpment, to those of you who might have the wrong idea because you know what a mountain really looks like) and I cranked the heat, and for extra good measure, popped the car into neutral and cruised the remaining five miles down the "mountain" (still averaging 65 km/h I might add).
Well, we made it home. I shamed the car with sound verbal abuse, then picked up James at a gas station, where he was waiting in the rain with a bottle of coolant. Unfortunately, it was the wrong type, so I braved another trek out to school this morning without the coolant, which probably was not smart, but I had a test to write.
Our car is now being serviced. And I am trying to avoid holding a grudge. I am thankful for the flashback though. Time to re watch some old videos ( I definitely caught Old Faithful's geyser on tape... as Kerri frantically tried to pop the hood and colorful fluids rushed down the highway. Oh boy. What fun :)
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Things I love about life on
1) I am in walking distance to the library
2) I can see and be comforted by the forest on our 'doorstep' and the city at our backdoor.
3) The convenience store
4) Early Saturday morning breakfasts at "
5) Starbucks after Vindaloo
6 ) A brother-in-law who can pop in for sloppy Joe's and a slice of custard pie
7) That James enjoys public transit
8) That I enjoy our car
9) The city-sky line in the morning, with the church spires set against a red sky
10) Being three floors up, with an enormous amount of sunlight to keep me warm and smiley
11) I can spot a boneless chicken breast special at the local deli, buy it, and go on with my clothes shopping down the street, swinging a bag of thawed, floppy chicken
12) Diversity
13) Styles that I didn't think existed, that exist on
14) Hearing children run through this old house
15) Communal pancakes with the house mates
16) When Rachel brings up leftover spinach rolls
17) Dumping my recycling in the neighbor's bin across the road, because ours got picked up already
18) Being only 10 minutes away from our friends and fam
19) Open windows in November
20) Christmas coming and taking our house with it
21) Being married!
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Dr. Seuss
And the Grinch, with his Grinch-feet ice cold in the snow, stood puzzling and puzzling, how could it be so? It came without ribbons. It came without tags. It came without packages, boxes or bags. And he puzzled and puzzled 'till his puzzler was sore. Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn't before. What if Christmas, he thought, doesn't come from a store? What if Christmas, perhaps, means a little bit more?
Classic.
Of course, I agree with the Grinch. But I admit, I'm excited for the ribbons, tags, boxes and bags. Maybe it's having our own place, and the freedom that comes with that. We can get our own tree, make our own decorations, bake our own cookies, burn some sweet CD's, have our friends down for some caroling, stuff our own stockings... I'm just really excited for that "stuff" that has really nothing to do with that "little bit more" , but a lot more to do with a festive, fun, relaxing holiday from the day to day activities of being a student/ student teacher.
But along with that, I like the lovely reminder from G.K Chesterton
When we were children we were grateful to those who filled our stockings at Christmas time. Why are we not grateful to God for filling our stockings with legs?
The beautiful thing about all of the above is that it's from God. A Holy God.
And amid all the clatter, clutter, and clamor that surrounds the holiday, the Voice of God holds our world captive. Christmas can never be isolated from that fateful moment in history when the angels sang the truth about The Christ. The reason for Christmas.
Christmas is the gentlest, loveliest festival of the revolving year -- and yet, for all that, when it speaks, its voice has strong authority.
Thanks be to God. W. J. Cameron gets it. We get it. The world better start getting it.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Strike
I wouldn't be surprised if the two are in league together. The swine creates a name for itself, instills a nice dose of panic and recognition in the populace, and then the normal flu comes and starts knocking people down like bowling pins, sending them into a panic.
I imagine the two high five each other, then play another round.
It's a fierce cycle- this flu business- and being one of those pins, I've been knocked down since Monday.
Brutal.
It started at school (for no particular reason, because I faithfully hand sanitize) as a slight headache. By the time I was in the car, moving my eyes was more than a little uncomfortable.
By the time I was in the house, I felt like someone with a grudge had somehow, without me knowing, cracked a baseball bat on my head. By the time I hit my pillow at 2pm, I was out for the next 5 hours.
Waking up in the evening is always a bit disconcerting, because you think it's morning, but it can't be, because your husbands not there, and you don't know why you are wearing jeans. But, with a little time, coherency gives your head a knuckle rub and you start to make sense of your dark surroundings.
Ooh...the flu...
So that was Monday evening. James came home about 7:30, and my 5 hours of afternoon unconsciousness had worked wonders. We ate chicken soup, we watched a movie, we took it easy, and then I got a fever.
I had forgotten what the hot and cold chills sensation was all about. A reminder's always nice, I suppose, if you are one to get nostalgic over memories like that. But I'm not, and so the reminder, which lasted from sundown to sunup, was as unwelcome as the idea of two flues conspiring against me.
I survived the night, which at the time was certainly questionable, to me at least, and entered a new day deprived of both sleep and my chicken soup.
Breakfast is something I look forward to. It just has this way of starting the day off right. So to go without breakfast forebodes a day that will just not be right. That, my friends, is an understatement. The problem is, my head is telling me it wants all the lovely things stocked inside our fridge. My hand agrees, and grabs the food. My mouth agrees, it chews the food. Even my throat agrees, and swallows it. So, it would seem we are all on the same side here. The stomach however, which has been granted ultimate authority on the issue, throws a mini temper tantrum. It would seem his new friend- The Flu- has migrated south, and has gathered the reins for the time being.
So, food is out.
So, apparently is water.
Without the essentials, I again feel myself in the clutches of death by flu and dehydration, until James returns from the corner store with ginger ale. This, my stomach has no choice but to tolerate, and I treasure it like a bottle of wine over dinner. Eventually, I introduced the soda cracker, and finding no reaction, settled back for a swift recovery. That was Tuesday.
Today is Friday.
And, I still am dealing with the unwelcome virus.
There's no need to go into further detail. We all know what the flu is capable of, I'm sure. I just guess I'm disappointed that my friend- Immune System- has been so manipulated. I mean, is it just letting this thing tromp across my whole body? What was that whole fever thing even about? I thought that was a good sign, a sign of battle being waged on the enemy, my troops of white blood cells lining up like good little soldiers and harpooning the enemy without mercy.
Well, I suppose I'll have to explain my poor infantry to my advisor. I only have a week left of teaching placement, and this week out of commission will reflect poorly on my review. I am not sure what the policy is, but I may have to make up some time once all this is over.
Props to a weekend, and the hope of recovery.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
a few ramblings
So I will try again.
My schedule in teacher's college so far is not too demanding, allowing me a very long weekend, but an intense mid week to make up for the slack.
Tomorrow will see me up at 7:00 am, and home by 7:00 pm, but that is as busy as I get.
Until next week. On Monday I start practicing my career choice as a high school "facilitator" as the college wishes me to describe it, which means I will be teaching civics to a grade ten class for about a month.
Hot Topics to cover in Unit three are global issues, Canadian heroes, the UN, etc... but we'll save that for next week.
And so like I said, I have days like Monday and Tuesday to do as I please while James puts in his steady 8- 5 workday in the lab, five days a week, quite faithfully I might add.
I don't quite operate the same way, keeping a tentative schedule in my head of what needs to be done up to two days max, which can be rearranged at my leisure at any given time. This gets interesting around crunch time, but something to worry about when "crunch" actually hits.
But I like being home.
This place is always up for my constant pampering- putting up with yet another new throw rug, a few more holes in its brittle walls for the sake of new candle holders, IKEA computer desks for a much desired work space, and of course the odd burnt appliances, or plastic singed to the oven rack after my attempt to preheat the oven with a loaf of bread inside for cozy storage. It even helped me dispose of a stubborn disagreeble plant, which I carefully placed on the window ledge after a brief watering, only to discover it gone a few moments later. Luckily noone was walking on the path three stories below.
But anyways, our home is a work in progress that has a small portion of my mind constantly occupied.
"How bout painting a chalk board right to the wall? Where could we string our orange hammock? Maybe we could have a swing, instead of bar stools for the kitchen counter.."
..you know, those types of ponderings.
So what I am saying is, James and I love having our own home. And with that, our own rules. I'm fine with hoisting my laundry basket on my head, hopping out the bathroom window, and winding down three flights of stairs, multiple times, to do the laundry. So long as James heads out the other door and takes care of the garbage. But chores aside- flexibility is key.
James wants pizza in bed? Why not?
We feel like dancing on our new rug? Sure!
Wine while cooking? Excellent :)
Squirrels got into the kitchen garbage? Ok...
Speaking of squirrels, I have a hunch that several million are living on our roof. It doesn't help that the neighbor, who not only sweeps her trees, also spreads birdseed across her entire driveway morning and night, providing a feast for lazy squirrels. But on top of squirrel seed, they live on our deck, stealing my 150 sun dried chestnuts right off our chair. And if THAT's not enough (I presume it's going to be a hard winter) they managed to get into our garbage, in the kitchen, and made off with half its contents, spilling the other half all over the unlucky tile.
I'm not sure how I digressed from life at home to the squirrel population, but there's a tidbit of info for you on life with the Harskamps. And life is good.
It's 3:15, which means I should start getting ready for my English class.
I hope to keep this up more regularly. I'm sure my teaching experiences will supply me with more than enough material.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Our HOME!
Directly across from the kitchen, visually, and about 5 paces literally, is our dining room. We eat three healthy meals a day here, unless we have lunch at our schools, and Audrey Hepburn has faithfully attended each occasion-along with "Heppie"- our wooden Mexican turtle. That's Heppie on the sugar jar, James and Audrey. A tad crowded at times, but for the most part, a really good time.
This is me, standing in front of the kitchen and pointing at my unfinished painting which is standing on my Opa's art easel. I really should finish that soon...
And there you have it folks. A quick tour of the apartment. It still needs a few touch ups, but for the most part, it is quite livable and lovable. It's quite bright, and cheery, and so far, well visited. I hope that aspect never changes! And now that you have seen it, specifically family in BC, feel free to drop in to say hello! James' makes fantastic coffee.. and my baking isn't terrible. We'd love to have you!
Monday, July 6, 2009
Weird.
And incredibly exciting.
But as exciting as all this wedding planning has turned out to be :)I would like to take a moment to share how my summer has panned out since classes ended at my beloved university, and I made the transition back under my parents roof.
I always find that by the time I finish school, I am ready for the grunt labour job that awaits me at my papa's farm. However, I always promise myself to continue educating myself by the means of a hefty reading list, which I make every effort to plug away at over the course of the summer months.
As usual, the reading list gets shelved for the million other things I want to do that demand way more physical exertion- and all things considered,the trade off is worth it. I can read more when I have osteoporosis.
And so I have enjoyed many lunch hours (45 minutes each) of showing off my "home" to the girls I work with, and exploring God's green earth.
And there is no better time than spring.
It happens every year, but every year I am amazed at the amount of wildlife that seems to burst out of the ground and sprawl across my path. Baby birds galore, hills with coyotes packed inside, a bald eagle even! Seriously- just awesome.
And when nature isn't just happening, we are sure to make things happen, because life is always a little more thrilling when you try to live it on the edge. Not right on the edge, but you know, a step away or something.
Anyways, the incredible thunderstorms that bubble up from the lake and spit lightning around metal carts gives our crew that perfect burst of adrenaline to finish the day off right.
And a lunch break on the train bridge, accompanied by said train, is another one of those "grab life by the horns" moments that Robyn described in her blog. Not to mention we're about 60 feet off the ground with a five foot deep harbour to break our falls.
Just beautiful.
So yes, life back home this summer, so far, has been fantastic. The girls are fun and refreshing to be around, the job keeps your hands occupied, and your mind free to wander above and beyond the menial labour your body is bound too, and the money that rolls in is as welcome as the energy injecting thunderstorms.
Complaints are few.
And on a different note, I have picked up my two year old nephew as a roommate, and although he is probobly the most adorable kid I have seen in a long time, he finds his happiest moments to be alive are at 3:00 am. God bless him- and his new baby brother, Caleb Theodore Dykstra, born 23 hours and 45 minutes into Canada Day, 7lbs, 15 ounces, with a load of black hair,and a crinkly newborn disposition. He's wonderful.
Well, there is still way more on tap for this summer before the big wedding day, but I'll post them as they unfold, because that's the right way to tell a story. No sense getting ahead of myself, now is there?
Monday, April 20, 2009
Fond Memories
But I still feel somewhat sad. Maybe it's the rainy weather, or Nabi Loney's music, but I have a hunch it's the overwhelming sense of finality creeping up and threatening to put an end to my undergrad. I'm pretty sure that's it.
See, with the abs workout, there's always a looking forward to the next one. With a final paper--there's no next paper to dread, or anticipate.
I think I'm afraid that I'll fail in the years ahead to push myself like I have this year. As much as I have been equipped with the tools to educate myself, I am stepping out of an environment that I love.
And so I'm torn between the love of being a student and the reality that I can't be one forever. Unless I'm Doug.
But so it is. Time moves on...a series of ends and beginnings, and we roll with it because we've been made to. There's no time to stop, and besides, I don't really want to.
A few days ago I said goodbye to my Opa. He died a week ago today--the first death in our family. I can't describe what it feels like to lose someone that's been a steady presence in my life. I know the right answer--that I should be happy, but my mind still can't make sense of the finality of it.
There's something very sad about it, even if I know that I, like my Opa, am moving on. And people tend to try and remedy my sadness by resurrecting fond memories, or by anticipating new, better ones, but it doesn't really work.
Thinking back makes you remember days that are gone, and looking forward only reinforces your awareness that you have to leave.
House 333, with Robyn, Trine, Ally, Kristin, Erin and myself, marks my family of fourth year. Ally left yesterday--the first 'breaking of the fellowship' and my Opa left last week. And it won't be the same again.
That's why I grieve. I know that I can still be happy, and I'm sure the future holds even more happiness than I've ever been aware of before, but that step involves leaving something, or someone behind that I hold very dear.
I'll miss them all, but I'll thank God for the fond memories.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Invisible Children
Check out www.invisiblechildren.com and join the rescue on April 25 in Toronto.
This is a huge chance for us to be a voice for the thousands of children abducted in Uganda and turned into child soldiers in Africa's longest running war.
The video can explain what's going on a lot better than I can, so check it out. It's worth it.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Me--I take a long time to commit to words. There are a lot to choose from and I want to get it right. Post midnight, words just start to do their own thing on my page. They slip out of me, unchecked, unregulated...and I can almost hear their squeels of delight when they do it, especially the older ones, because they've waited a long time for this moment. To catch me off guard, and be out in the open, splatted on paper so that they can actually validate themselves in the big wide written world.Curse words are known for this.
Self respect. That's what it's all about. And when I blog past midnight, with a laptop battery that only has 25 minutes to go, I see two problems. One- I am not a Katrina. Time crunches hurt my abs. And two: I write about nothing. I write because my laptop is on my lap, and my fingers are on the keys, and I'm so comfortable in my mass of pillows and blankets that it just seems like the right thing to do. And I don't have a clue what to say, other than that my battery is fading about as fast as I am, and yet I'm still here.
It's because I'm in that cozy phase...the one everyone loves and hates because it's the pinnacle of comfy, or at least it could be, but your mind keeps poking you annoyingly, because it wants bed.
Low Battery signal is now poking me. I'm altogether too uncomfortable now to even write about being comfy. Already a thing of the past.
And one point goes to the words that escaped me on this little random post.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Baaaahhh
We've entered the post reading break buzz-- where you literally walk through the Redeemer halls and catch snippets of individual conversations that somehow blend into a united chorus of the student body- screaming "I'm BUSY". It's bazaar, but I almost wonder if I stood in one place long enough, if the student body might actually burst into rebellious song- like some sort of fantastical high school musical (with some slight choreographical tweaking). HA. Wouldn't that be funny.
I just wonder why the busiest time of the school year lands itself in a time where it seems we are least likely to deal with it. A week off, a sun that has snapped out of hibernation, and the smell of a thawing world is not exactly conducive to excellence in academic performance. But I speak for myself. For those incredibly self-disciplined, the sight of green grass and running water might have the opposite effect. But those people live in libraries.
The general consensus seems to be that the season of Lent also brings a season of stress and hyper academic activity. I simply wish we could align ourselves a tad more appropriately to the church calender- so that as Easter approaches, our minds might not be so frazzled, but rested and refreshed.
But until that day of calender co-habitation, I will continue to drink coffee and meet deadlines.
It is still a joy to be alive.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Instead I watched my brother and his highschool basketball team take the championship in the Christian schools tournament. It was truly a moment in history for Heritage, being a tiny school that has yet to put out a championship team in much of anything. Props to Matt and his cronies. It was excellent basketball.
The closest I got to getting any sort of excercise was shooting around with Doug during half time (trying to recreate my own past bball endeavors) and then starting a mini- dance party with Robyn to Africa King- a Latino dance song on par with the Macarena.
That was fun.
Anyways, homework is lame. Latino music is not.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Deer Mice,
And so, for sanitary purposes, we set traps in our food cupboards. Robyn gets the most suprises. Three pretty strangled mice in three consecutive days. And that's a record, because in all the other locations they seem to be smarter.
It's a bit humiliating, being outwitted by a mouse. But the word is that these are not ordinary mice. All indications point to the potential that they are deer mice. And so now, we are not only concerned by their intelligence, but by their unique abilities to carry strange diseases that are fatal to humans.
But we won't be beat. Poison was our next resort, which we strategically layed beyond the traps. What's interesting is that the mice, in their eagerness to poison themselves would actually step on the trap, thus sparing themselves from the slow and aggrevating process of blood thinning for a more quick and easy eye bulging experience. And so, we think we are winning the battle.
And yet, we aren't quite so sure. The poison continues to disappear (good thing) but the mouse poop continues to appear (bad thing). I'm hoping they are storing our offering for some special occasion, wherin word will spread to the surrounding mice communities within our home that there is a feast prepared of blue pebbles- a gift from the humans. At this point, they will sit and eat and die.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Really?!
But these thoughts would always be tagged with the nagging question of "but who the heck will do this with me?"
You never know, really. You hope, but that's about all you can do as your dreams pile up and you frantically snatch at the opportunities that bump you on your way to school, then skip ahead so you can chase them. And then BAM- midstride- you meet him.
The mysterious guy that you have thought about off and on as you've grown up, speculated about with your friends, and formed in your mind as the "perfect guy" at all the birthday parties, and you have to check your stride and ask, "really?"
And you ask yourself that, not because you're disappointed, but because you've been caught up in the excitement of other things- getting that degree than booting off to New Zealand to "start your life"- that you've sort of forgotten the possibility that your life might just have better plans... like it wants to 'start' a bit earlier.
And that's what happened when I met James. He came out of nowhere. I wasn't expecting him, or sure of him (there had been certain warnings :)but I was caught midstride and asking myself "really?"
And that's the beatiful mystery of it. Somehow, we fit. I don't think I've met a man more opposite to my personality ( I do NOT see us hunting kangaroo) but so similar in convictions. It is an interesting dynamic that not only has me excited but committed.
The honest truth is, after almost 2 years of dating, I can't see myself with anyone else. And the best part is, I haven't altered a single dream--I've just found an answer to that one nagging question...
I guess love will do that to you!
James' already mentioned that we're getting married. He proposed, much to my surprise January 9 and the wedding date is set for August 21. Seven months to plan a wedding and buy a camel!
Piece of cake :)
Thursday, January 1, 2009
2009
Hmm...
Anyways, forget all that. It's info time.
This Christmas holiday has been fantastic. On the 17th, James and I hopped on a plane, and two movies later (I watched Wall-E and Sound of Music, for those interested) we were in Vancouver. James' parents picked us up, then dropped us off at Stewart's rehearsal dinner, where we met the bride to be, and ate a lot of Chinese food. James was pretty busy with wedding stuff for the first few days, which was to be expected (he's a bit of a planner) but this was all right. I had three good books in my back pack, with nothing but time to read them. Glorious.
That being said, post- wedding time made for a much more relaxed, proper beginning to the holidays. Surrey got dumped on with snow, which made for excellent snow shoeing conditions in the mountains, and sledding behind Mark's truck in the subdivision.
James knows I naturally like to be outside, but when in B.C, this casual 'like' turns to love and it's been a blossoming relationship :) I love it there.
On the first morning, James' and I were both up before the sun came up so we could go for a walk in the snowy streets, and knock on Dan's window to say Hi. That first early morning started a trend in my sleeping habits, and I was usually wide awake by5:30 am . Not ideal.
But honestly, the 10 days spent in B.C. are a blur. I recall everything being very enjoyable, but flying past. Now I'm home, and the pace has slowed. Considerably. Work on the nursery in negative degree weather can do that to you. Time passing tends to correlate well with sluggish, freezing body movement. We have had weird weather over here with a few major wind storms resulting in fallen hoop houses and ripped up poly. Repairs were in our hands, because my brothers and I actually need to make some money, so we'll have to see how things stand when the next storm rolls around.
But home is good. It usually is. It's the place to be before heading off into a new year, so that you can get rested up and pumped up for the next leg of the journey at school, and then who knows where.
I hope everyone is having enjoyable holidays! That's all from me. Happy New Year!